so fragile it was
so fragile it is
a porcelain offering from
a man without false shine
alabama hardness that often hid wealth mined
from beneath the carnage he often
reached the bottom of, acting as if he had
discovered some new form of extinction
in a land he defended as if it was his alone…
but her smile always lit the exit tunnel
when he choose to suffer the surface of things:
he would rise from the bottom slowly
as if lifted on a scaffold of crud and circumstance.
she smiles and giggles, as she did back then
remembering the way he handled her firstborn
pulling it out of a greasy bag that was
as rippled as the wine it once held gently
the same way he would hold her
from time to time, his breath smelling like that church
on the corner- he said it was his church- where the
men and women preached funny when they came out…
he would preach funny sometimes too
but he didn’t preach at the funeral for her little baby
that broke after it fell off the kitchen table when
he slapped her sister, sending her flying underneath it
into one of the already rickety legs.
he said that he was sorry about what happened to her baby
he grinned and said he would try to buy her another one
she really didn’t believe that he bought that one
but his teeth shined just like her little baby did
so she just smiled back and giggled…